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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 01:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One cannot live in the past .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why is it so common for married white women to have an affair with black men? Does it bother white guys?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I’m a man. Why do I always fantasize about men’s cock? I don’t want a relationship with the man, I just want to suck his cock.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Have you ever been forced to undress for money just once?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And i lived it daily.

She married twice! .

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Ive learnt so much.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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As i do to all so called friends.?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Why am I always so tired and I don't eat enough?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

How do you have intercourse with a girl who can remember you for a long time?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I could never make a relationship work though!

It was going to be , some day.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was scared of men, in general

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She found it foreign!.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was seconnd youngest,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

When she asked me how she looked .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So, i spoilt her more .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Comes on , in middle age.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She wouldn,t have been !

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Im still living with it.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But it wasn’t much.

Would this be the day?

We were not on the streets..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I said to her

Put me off passion for life!!

I will be 64.

But, we were locked up after school.

All the time i was locked up.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I don,t even have a pension.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I waited trembling.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I have no regrets .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Especially a lifetime of it.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I write beautiful poetry .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The only rule us 5 kids had .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My life is so biszare .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

This is soul school!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

What did i know ?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Why did i forgive my father ?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She loved him until the end.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My family never makes their pension either.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We all went to grammer schools

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was very sick at this time too.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She was in good health!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Who then, do I blame.?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was 9 years of age.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I think the readers, may guess!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He knew the spot.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!